November, 20th

Well hello blogwalkers!
It's been a year since I posted something on this blog. Let's not beat around the bushes so I'm gonna tell you straight to the main point. You guys definitely know what happened in three years ago. Well I'm just reminiscing them all. Don't get me wrong, I don't love (you) anymore, I'm just missing the memories of us, the feeling of loving someone and to be loved by someone. I want to have it all again (with different person of course, remember, I don't love -you- anymore)
Well that's all I wanna say today, Happy Failed 3rd Anniversary by the way.

I want.....

hey amour walkers!!!
long time no see huh, it's been a veryveryveryveryveryvery hectic months for me after all
so now guesst what, if you notice this, you'll always wonder why do I use "ATMS" as my ID copyright
you guys wonder? you all wonder? really? wanna know it? you sure?
so... ATMS is an abbreviation of Akhirat, Technology, Music, and Sport. you can say... that ATMS is actually my goals and resolutions. simple isn't it? (simple to say, but hard to do) sometimes I wanna burst out laugh when people think ATMS is an abbreviation of my boyf (WTFFF??? BOYFFF??? i don'r even have one)

so let's check out what ATMS i mean...

Heaven (AMIIIN)

Techno (CompSci and Robotics)

Music

Sport 2 (Aikido)

Free Fall from the Sky to the Bottom of Deepest Cliff

what d ya think? I think it's the worst y know. i can say that im not satisfied with that one. my grade is fallindown. it's sick to know that actually i can do better. so i have to be better, study hard, get alim-er. maybe

WT(H+F)

wow. it has been 15 years since i was born. we can say that, today is my birthday yeeaaaayy happy birthday to meeee. but.............. Its the Worst Day Ever in my life

Something to Believe In

Something to Believe In, I got the inspiration from an music anime. it's all about music, especially violin. yes, the instrument i've been playing for about 6 years (but there's no such a significant progress of my violin skill >.<) what can i say? music, classical music, is a perfect way for us to express our feelings, our emotion, our mind, express all of the things inside of us. I don't even know why we-the-classical-music-player are mostly more sensitive and expressive than everybody else. and yap, it's because of our habit after all. ok enough with violin things so now that i'll tell you what's the main point

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I can feel the real freedom of being a loner. it's much awasome than I thought before. I don't feel alone. I have my lovely classmates, my special 70 parteners, yes, we are the participant of Leadership Training in our school. Things changed a lot. and it's getting better I think. High School moment, it's time for us to find our real identity aka character. Being hypocrite doesn't mean that you're drama queen or king or somethin else. it's a way for us to adapt in such of situation and condition. so don't get it wrong okay? why did i write this? bcs there're lot of misunderstanding out there bout this 'adaptation way' moreover, high school time is an unstable moment for us. emotions' fluctuate, willing has the highest stage itself. thinking about future is keep stressing us down. yes, this is our play stage to encounter a little piece of real life. there'll be a looooooooooooot of problems out there waiting for us to overcome. and i guess, we have to be well-prepared for all sort of things if we wanna be a leader later.

Concluding of all of this, i just wanna say that being not-a-kid-but-not-yet-an-adult is not easy. problems starting to come toward us, so just keep believin in your deepest heart, be sure and confident that you can get all of the things done by your own power, be a rigid teenager would help you out of those problems, but don't forget that you're friends around you are ready to support you (maybe a few of them) ahhhaha sorry friends are just trap us in there deception, family support you the most :) and wish me luck for the violin, techno, and ice-skating! loveya readers!!!!

Hmh

Hey guys. i just wanna tell you that so far, I was lying bout my true feeling.
im concealing. im pretending like im another-unknown-person. im wearing a very very thick mask upon my face. so why did i do such a damn thing like this? im the only one who knows the answer hahaha^^ kidding

i know that some of you can easily guess what thing stays in my head. it is very disrupting my whole life. maybe im too excessive of depicting this story. yes but, that's the fact anyway. i cant hold this any longer. i need what i used to be deserved. that is..........................*ehem :""""""")

hey girls, its true isnt it? :') what else can we do?

(keep quiet and waiting, maybe) 

REVISED!!! *Finding another person isn't hard as you think. now that I know what really best for me is. I know God knows the best...:)

2011 Story

Well hello blogwalker! it's been a long time since my last post huh... tasks and tests in 8 SHS was driving me  so crazy-___- and im pretty happy for having time to make a new post

Well, ehm. as you know guys.. 20 January 2011, was a very "surprising" day to me. so what happened? BU, Broke-Up. Heaven Yeah! Id been being single again since that day. truthfully, I cried a lot on the first time. but now I realize.........that being single is AMAZING, EXCITING, FREEEEE and so on, I really love with the status and position Ive got right now, how happy I am. I shouldn't have to lose my energy to think a lot bout someone anymore. I shouldn't let my tears fall upon my face, i shouldn't be broken hearted when I see someone together with somebody else. yeahhh that's pretty pretty interesting!!! Ater 14 months i've sustained the burdens that he made, finally i got my life back! and i got my happiness again! what a bless

boyfriend?hell. friends?heaven. 1 thing that ive just realized is...........that I have some classmates. they're really really really unique, funny, kind. pokoknya gw ga nyesel masuk X-i, dan ga akan pernah nyesel. disini, gw nemuin kekompakan dan solidaritas antar teman, x-i tempat gw mencurahkan seluruh isi hati gw. mana temen2 gw unik parah!!! di x-i, lo nemuin berbagai macam jenis manusia. mulai dari yang BOOOT sampe yang eksis parah. tapi gaada yang songong, gaada yg nyebelin. semuanya kompak. udah deh. pokoknya gaada kata2 lagi yang dapat menggambarkan bagaimana perasaan bangga dan cinta gw terhadap x-i :"""""""""""""")

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Im happy when im with them :")

and their uniqueness :D

 

And there're some videos of them :) well, nothings serious in the videos, theyre just kidding though